when i got home last night

its like 5am now ... doing research for CRS .. having a test later !!! omg ... anyway... yesterday, when i got home.. my mum was home! it kinda made me feel all happy again =) cause when i was on my way home yesterday, i thought i will be going home to an empty home again ... and like emo in one corner of my room.. so i was really glad that i saw my mum at home ! =D Love you mummy =)




o o .. we went to the big big durian today ... and had a guided tour... and it really made me inspired to wanna perform there one day... its really a amazing place ... just beautiful... love the concert hall inside .. its really cool =)

i wish i had you to hold ... in times like these ... your love is what i need ...

a better day that will take it all away... love is what i need ... holding on to a promise ...

i never wanna let go... that will make a better life for me ... your love is what i need...

i just wanna tell u ... i just wanna tell u ... love .... is what i need ... over and over ... i see

your love coming over me.. over and over i see your love ... but wont you come ... and make me

complete... your love ... is what i need ... i'm holding on ... i'm holding on ... never let me go...

that we will go to a place where love meets ... and still over and over ... your love is all i need ...

my heart .. my heart .. will never let go .... I love you ....

ok back to do my CRS now ! bye!

its still fluffy =)

tough day ... got a toung lashing frm my cg leader ... but all's good now =)

its getting better each day ... haha ...

nite ....


truthfully ... my hearts hurts like hell inside ... and im tried of everything ...


and i still wanna tell u ... i miss u ...

its so fluffy i wanna dieee!!!

woah ... a long time sinced i blogged..

needed a place to let go ... and this is the place i could think of ...
been feeling really tired lately with life itself... going through something really hard
in my life now... theres so many feelings and i just dont know where to start...
srsly ... what do i really wan ... i dont know myself ... what do i really really want... ?
brandon... whats wrong with you... its that thing that i thought i have over comed that came
back to hunt me... i miss my daddy real bad .... seeing my friends .. who can go out as a family for dinner ... having their daddy sent them to school and fatch them ... seeing a family going to chuch tgt .... i miss the times ... really hit me real hard... where i myself now ... eating dinner alone in a quite house with no one around... going home on the train alone .. having to squeez with so many people... going home to a empty house .... i just feel so alone and lonely.... i know i have u God ... my spirit is filled with ur love .. and i thank you for that ... but my flash is just o so weak ... im still human u know... i need that love so badly .... that pain i have in my heart .... everytime i think or see it...
im tired ... so tired ... just wanna numb myself ... work is the only thing i can do to distract myself ... i really hope ... all these just go's away ... so that i can move on ...

God ... even when im going through all these ... i choose to love =) thank u for loving me also ...

i wish i had someone to hold ... :')